You Know I’ve Been Unfaithful…

Jealous Kind

by Jars of Clay

I built another temple to a stranger
I gave away my heart to the rushing wind
I set my course to run right into danger
Sought the company of fools instead of friends

You know I’ve been unfaithful
Lovers in lines
While you’re turning over tables with the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind

Tried to jump away from rot that keeps on spreading
For solace in the shift of the sinking sand
I’d rather feel the pain all too familiar
Than be broken by a love I don’t understand
‘Cause I don’t understand

You know I’ve been unfaithful
Lovers in lines
While you’re turning over tables with the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind

One hundred other lovers, more, one hundred other altars
If I should slow my pace and finally subject me to grace
And love that shames the wise, betrays the heart’s deceit and lies
And breaks the back of foolish pride

You know I’ve been unfaithful
Lovers in lines
While you’re turning over tables with the rage of a jealous kind
I chose the gallows to the aisle
Thought that love would never find
Hanging ropes will never keep you
And your love of a jealous kind

It hit me really hard, that song. (I couldn’t find a video, but give it a listen if you can.)

I’m sorry for replacing you, God. Thank you that you still love me even after that.

No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:39

Reach That Far

by Eleventyseven

Don’t leave me now my memories are more than I can take tonight
And God show me how I’m supposed to trust in things beyond my sight
So teach me how to kneel
When I don’t know how to feel
And show me where you are
When my faith can’t reach that far

And tell me there is more
To this life than only what my heart can see
Take all these fears
Make them into more than who I used to be
Is my soul to blind too see
The truth you have for me
‘Cause this I feel inside
Is too weak to survive

My heart has left me alone again
Is this the beginning?
Is this the end?
Is this the time you’ll never let me in again?

So teach me how to kneel
When I don’t know how to feel
And show me where you are
When my faith can’t reach that far

Even if I’m all alone…

Believe- Mainstay

I don’t know if I still have the strength to get up again
I don’t know if I can face my own reflection
Jesus, take this heart that feels so cold again and make it new
I hold this hope inside that you’ll never leave me
When all around me starts to fall and when my faith it seems so small
Even in my darkest hour, I will believe

I don’t know how I could turn my back and walk away
All I really want is for your love to hold me
Jesus, take this heart and make it whole again
I know you’ll never leave me

When all around me starts to fall and when my faith it seems so small
Even in my darkest hour, I will believe
Even if the sun begins to fall, even when I feel nothing at all
Even if I’m all alone, I will believe
I will beieve…

When all around me starts to fall and when my faith it seems so small
Even in my darkest hour, I will believe

I Will believe…
Even in my darkest hour, I will believe.