We Find Ways.

“My heart has heard you say, “Come and talk with me.”

And my heart responds, “Lord, I am coming.” Psalm 27:8

If the person you liked told you they wanted to talk to you, what would you do? After blushing furiously and getting over the giggling fit (and the boys react violently, “We do not giggle!” Lies.) you’d probably drop everything and go, right? And if they texted you and you didn’t have load, you’d run to the nearest AutoLoad place just so you can reply. When your friends call you and say, “UY, may kwento ako.” even if you were studying for your exams, you’d stop and take the call, yes? (Because it’s an excuse to stop studying, haha.)

We’ll find time somewhere in our schedules to talk to our friends, no matter how busy we are. We find ways. Para na tayong BDO. (HAHA, sorry. Just pretend you found that funny.)

But what about when God comes up to you and says, “Hey, let’s talk.” What do you do then?

“Wait lang God, kailangan ko mag-aral para sa Physics.” (hahaha, Physics. sigh.) or,

“I’m still talking to (insert friend’s name).. Just give me ten minutes?”

Then the ten minutes becomes one hour, and after that you remember, Oh right, I have to study for Physics. Sorry God, maybe tomorrow.”

Suddenly our being busy became an excuse.

If we’re willing to go out of our way to spend time with our friends, what more to spend time with God?

He’s running the entire universe and still has time to spare for us. What’s our excuse for not having time for Him?

My Obsession.

I was reading Ate Ham’s Dev-O today. It was about our obsession with God, and our pursuit for Him.

“Real obsession about anything but God can only lead to varying levels of corruption and disappointments. We relentlessly pursue what we are obsessed about. “

That part struck me the most, because I know it’s true. I’m obsessed right now. Not with God, and I can see how that’s corrupting and disappointing me.

Ever since this obsession started, I started doing things for the wrong reasons. My focus shifted from God to that obsession. Everything I did revolved around it- I pursued it relentlessly, to the point where God was replaced.

I can see where this is taking me, and it isn’t anywhere in God’s direction. The pursuit for my obsession took me the opposite direction, and now I’m farther away from God than I was before. I know that if I keep on like this, I’m bound to go even farther away, and fail even more.

I know that until I start pursuing God, the emptiness I feel now won’t go away. I need to focus on Him again. I want Him to be my obsession, and I want the desire to pursue him with everything I’ve got.