Say It.

Take all of your wasted honor

Every little past frustration

Take all of your so-called problems

Better put them in quotations

Say what you need to say…

Walking like a one man army

Fighting with the shadows in your head

Living out the same old moment

Knowing you’d be better off instead

If you could only

Say what you need to say…

Have no fear for giving in

Have no fear for giving over

You better know that in the end

It’s better to say too much

Than never to say what you need to say again

Even if your hands are shaking

And your faith is broken

Even as the eyes are closing

Do it with a heart wide open…

Say what you need to say.

- John Mayer

Keeping it to yourself won’t do anyone any good.

Ohizashiburi!!!

It’s been so long. I haven’t updated my blog in months and I feel terrible, but I couldn’t bring myself to write anything.

It’s past 2 in the morning and I’m at Hannah’s house with Hannah and Dani. We just ate a lot of McDonald’s and are waiting for the full feeling to go away.

 

I’m off to college next Monday! I’m actually excited now, unlike a month ago. I think it’s because I’ve signed up for my classes and have my schedule already. It’s funny how I’m classmates with Hannah in all my classes except for PE and Math. We would’ve been classmates for math too, but we realized just a while ago that I was put in the basic math class. Which I think is because I had a low score in the math portion of the ACET, so yeah. Sucks, because that means I’m having summer class this year. Booooo. I hope I get moved up or something.

So that’s college news.

On Nihongo news, I was offered a tutoring opportunity today. My mom’s employee’s friend needs a tutor because she’s going to Japan in August, and they asked me, which is so awesome because I’ve been looking for a source of income for forever, and this was so well-timed. It’s cool, thank God for this. I hope it works out well. I’m not entirely confident in my ability to teach someone Nihongo, though Sensei thinks I can do it. But I need to prepare. Exciting, that.

 

I’m getting sleepy now, and I can’t write properly anymore. More decent entries coming soon, I promise. I’m going to write about college. And stuff. More often from now on. And I’m planning to finally start my Nihongo blog. I hope.  I really hope. No. I will. Okay.

I want to write.

Yeah. And really, what’s stopping me? I write already, all the time. I just have to write more seriously. I mean, about things that matter and things that will help people.

I’ve been writing for myself for forever, and I know I can do more than that. I think I’m just scared to. It’s time to put my fears aside though, and work for something bigger. Because I can see bigger things ahead and I really have to start running after them.

I was thinking about the stuff I’ve written for Dev-O, and the other random things I keep to myself, and the thing is, I CAN write. I have the potential to be good at it, I just have to keep writing without being scared. And I have to stop being scared now.

The Weekend.

Our internet at home is busted, so I haven’t gone online in two days. I’m using Nest’s internet, which is also acting up, but still working, which is awesome.

So the UPCAT results came out last Saturday, and Hannah was the one who informed me again. XD I couldn’t check it myself since the internet was busted, so I asked her to check for me, and guess what? I wasn’t admitted. Haha. I used to say I didn’t pass, but my mom thinks I passed and they just don’t want to accept me because I’m home schooled and they’re biased like that. Well. Their loss. Ateneo, here I come~~ =D

Truthfully, after the ACET results came out, I didn’t care much about whether UP accepts me or not. (Right Hannah? Hahahaha.)

So yeah, Yanskeedoodle is a blue eagle. Yay!

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I also had my Nihongo final on Saturday. It was a bit sad, because it was our last day as a class. A lot of us are planning to skip Elementary 4 and Intermediate 1 classes because we already reviewed them for the JLPT, and it would save a lot of money to go straight to Intermediate 2. We also won’t have the same teacher when we enroll again.

Anyway, I wasn’t confident about the finals, because I didn’t study at all, but by some miracle I managed to pass. We all passed! It’s great.

After the test, I had lunch at Yamazaki(?) with Ann-san, Pola-san, Kichi-san, Nicole-san, and Anson-san, who treated us. We talked about starting an Elem4/Intermediate1 study group since a lot of us plan to study those on our own, and that’s exciting. I hope it pulls through; I will miss my classmates.

I went home after lunch, and then got ready for Ate Nadja’s wedding, which was that evening at The Blue Leaf. I rode with Dani and Tita Dongdong, and we got there in time to hear Ate Nadja’s vows. It was a really cute wedding~ Their theme was coffee, and they had a Starbucks booth and everything. Ate Nadja and Kuya Chuck were cute. And Nicole was pretty, and I loved her hair. So yeah, that was fun. I photo boothed with Dani, Nicole, Kuya Martin, and Kuya Mike.

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Sunday was chaotic. I taught Sunday School with Bianca and Hannah. I don’t know why, but whenever Bianca and I teach, it’s either we have absolutely no students, or we have so many we barely fit in the room. Yesterday, we had fifteen kids. I am seriously thankful Hannah decided to help out because otherwise, we would have died. XD It was fun though, because the kids were more responsive than usual. Just a bit hyper, but I guess that made it fun. I missed teaching, and my first class for this year will not be forgotten. Hahaha.

Oh, Yay. Ateneo.

Last Name: ZAMORA

First and middle name: Arianna Gabrielle Soliman

Status: ACCEPTED

Course: AB Lit (Eng)

I was in my Japanese class this morning, and I got this insanely excited text message from Hannah asking me, “DID YOU SEE NA?!” referring to the ACET results, which came out today. So that got me excited and I started bugging her to tell me how we did, but she wouldn’t say. Then my mom calls me, and she was pretty much screaming into the phone: “YOU PASSED!!!!!”

Ohhhhh, yay. I am relieved, I can breathe easy now. I was worried the whole week because or ACET and UPCAT results.

Hallelujah and amen. I have a school already.